Just another life blog.

I said I was gonna push myself, last entry I made. I really am. I am shocked by the apathy I feel. I thought I might feel some social anxiety...and I did, at first, upon contemplation, but once I made up my mind...I feel nothing. Right now, I feel nothing. I almost feel...tired...it's very strange. Not to say that my passion has leaked away, it hasn't, but it's that dull feeling of acceptance when you realize something unpleasant is gonna happen, or you have to do something you don't want. Not fighting. Just surrendering.
A tender surrender.
I think that's a Steve Vai song...Actually, I'm pretty positive that's a Steve Vai song.

I think I might start doing a FOTD(face of the day) and guitar updates every day...Actually, I think that's a great idea. I'm gonna try to start doing that.
I'm not really concerned about subscribers on here. I know I get some reads when I link to here for product lists on makeup looks and stuff...but yeah, this is kinda for my benefit rather than anybody elses. It inspires me :)

Today, I played around with double drop D tuning. That was fun. I learned "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls, and then worked on "Yesterday's Feelings" by The Used in the double drop d. I think I like it better in just Drop D though.

FOTD:
I couldn't really get a good pic today, but I'll do the product list anyway, lol.
This has become my new go-to look, I've worn it every day this week...it's fast, easy, natural looking, and super-pretty.
Face:
Smashbox Photo Finish Foundation Primer(Just got it yesterday. I love this stuff!)
A green corrector & flesh tone concealer
Maybelline Dream Matte Mousse
MAC Mineralize Skinfinish Natural(which I need more of desperately, I'm almost out)
A Covergirl bronzer I happened to pick up, it makes my face look warmer
Maybelline Dream Mousse blush in Peach Satin
then a shimmery white eyeshadow for a highlight on my cheekbones.
(I know that seems like a lot but it takes under 5 minutes, lol)

Lips:
Cherry Carmex...keeping it simple :)

Eyes:
MAC Paint Pot in "Rubenesque"
Urban Decay 24/7 Eyeliner in "Bourbon"
L'oreal Voluminous mascara
A highlight color from my CS 88 Palette.

boom, that's it. Especially with the paint pot now, that takes up MUCH less time but still looks good. Yesterday I added "Smog" by Urban Decay in the outer corner and crease fora little more depth, but I was in a rush today.

I've got stuff to do...and I feel so tired, I feel like I'm gonna drop...I do wanna post some lyrics though.

seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
it's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with time
but i'm too young to worry.
the streets we traveled on will undergo our same lost past

i found you here, now please just stay for awhile
i can move on with you around
i hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
i'd do anything for a smile,
holding you til our time is done
we both know the day will come
but i don't wanna leave you

i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with time
but i'm too young to worry.
a melody, a memory, or just one picture...

seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
it's empty and cold without you here
too many people too ache over.

newborn life replacing all of us,
changing this fable we live in.
no longer needed here...
so where do we go?
will you take a journey tonight,
follow me past the walls of death
but girl..what if there is no eternal life?

i see my vision burn,
i feel my memories fade with time
but i'm too young to worry.
a melody, a memory, or just one picture...

seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
it's empty and cold without you here
too many people to ache over.

trials in life, questions of us existing here
don't wanna die alone without you here
please tell me what we have is real...

so what if i never hold you,
or kiss your lips again!?
i never wanna leave you...
and the memories of us to see,
i beg...don't leave me...

seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
it's empty and cold without you here.
too many people to ache over.
trials in life, questions of us existing here
don't wanna die alone without you here
please tell me what we have is real...

silence, you lost me, no chance for one more day
silence, you lost me, no chance for one more day
silence, you lost me, no chance for one more day
silence, you lost me....no chance to get back home....