I have made significant progress in my life today. I'm proud of myself...and yet am kind of irritated with myself at the same time. I find it a little easier to meet my eyes in the mirror...but find it much harder to move through my day to day tasks. I guess that makes sense.
Remedy? Steady diet of music. Lots of it. That's all that seems to get to me anymore...I guess that makes sense.
Annoyance? Liars...that's ironic, but I guess that makes sense, too.
Why does my blogging experience always end up incredibly depressing? Haha.
Anyways. It's funny, I thought that after today I would be interested in being more social. Quite the opposite, actually. Which isn't healthy...not even remotely. It's strange, I'm so much more lonely but...I dunno. I'm probably gonna push myself...I really should meet new people, it'd be good for me...
but what I wouldn't give for some awesome people just to walk right into my life saying "hi, hello you're cool I'm cool let's do stuff occasionally I'm always here for you"...
What I wouldn't give for some realistic desires...haha...
and when i see you, i really see you upside down/but my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around/turns you around, turns you around/if you feel discouraged that there's a lack of color here/please don't worry lover, it's really bursting at the seams/absorbing everything, the spectrum's a to z/this is fact not fiction for the first time in years/and all the girls in every girly magazine can't make me feel/any less alone, i'm reaching for the phone/to call at 7:03/on your machine i slur a plea for you to come home/but i know it's too late/i should have given you a reason to stay/given you a reason to stay/given you a reason to stay/given you a reason to stay/this is fact not fiction for the first time in years
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